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(Sunday, March 08, 2009-)
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# Confounded.-
Have you ever had one of those days where you just simply felt... lost?
Its like, you wake up, you gaze at the ceiling for a few minutes, you get up, you do your stuff, you go through the day's motions.. You eat and its tasteless, you try to inject zest by being cheery and it comes out flat.. you scroll through your phonebook to see who would be willing to go out with you, but you just can't find the heart to carry it out... you blink, and sometimes all you see is black and white.. The one person you really wanna talk to doesn't have any interest to talk to you.. you hover your mouse over a friend's email on MSN, but you know double-clicking and engaging in a conversation with them would probably mean they stop replying you halfway.. you try to keep your mind busy, but it'll find a way to drag up memories you don't want to remember.. You remember seeing her for the first time, all preppy and cute, chatting with her friends.. you remember the outings you have, you remember the smiles she gave you.. you remember the twinkle in her eye whenever you surprise or tell her something she finds amusing.. you remember how subtle her touch was, when she grabbed your arm and ran through the crowd together.. you remember her other smile, the ultra radiant one, the one that causes her cheeks to glow and her eyes to shimmer, like you're gazing into a beautiful kaleidoscope... and you recall the softness of her hair, her scent and her voice.. and then you realize, that it will never never ever happen.. and you can never have her.. because her future lies away from you, and even though you would defy everything just to be with her and spent the rest of your life growing old together, she might not feel the same way.. have you ever had that kinda day?
I've spent a week like that.. and I have no idea what to do about it...
the story ends like this;
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