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(Wednesday, March 30, 2005-)
+9:39:00 AM]*
# Malay pig?-
To a certain Mr Lee whom my best friend is currently attached to:
Hey man, what's up with you? Did I ever insult you in such a ridiculous way? You think its so cool for you to insult another this way? Well lemme tell you you ain't such a good person yourself. You're lucky she even "chose" you in the first place. True yes I was looking at you, but who was pointing to who first and giving such a fucked up look in the first place? Hey boy look in the mirror and see the reflection before you talk about others! I mean like...
Can you even dance in the first place?
Hey man I don't doubt you. But you went to damn far by calling me a "fucking malay pig". She told me great things about you and I really felt that she found "The One". You treat her damn well, even far more better than anyone she has ever been together with. But after your little show of "affection", she did not find "The One" but she found "The Ass". As much as I would like to explain things to you, you just thought that I'm some kind of wolf trying to steal her away from you. You can think all you want! She has much more integrity and a whole lot more feelings for you. To her I am only someone she can talk to whenever people like YOU hurt her. and you know what I usually tell her?
"Stay with him, he's good for you"
"You and him can last a long time, don't give it up so soon,"
Yeah sure I may turn out to be a fox with a tail a mile long. But you ain't no angel too.
You were pissed off with me I perfectly understand. I've been in a relationship before. But that insult was seriously uncalled for. Damn I wasn't even surprised to see an entry about me in the damned first place! But you seriously went over the damn fucking line when you insulted me that.
I still think very highly of you. After all you are the most important person in her life. YOU! Not me. YOU!
I'm not the type to lose my temper in such away, but you, in trying to vent your anger, did it the fucking wrong way. You got angry with me I don't mind. But you put it the fucking wrong way.
I just hope she made the right choice.
and you know wad?
I'm gonna keep this between me and "my blog" too. Damned fool.
the story ends like this;
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(Tuesday, March 29, 2005-)
+9:35:00 PM]*
# Gone.-
"I didn't mean to half-ignore you today. I was so happy to see you again, but I didn't know why I couldn't bring myself to talk to you the way I usually do... I just felt that if I did it I would simply just drop and die. The sound of your voice thru my ears was enough to make me content, but at the same time I just wanted to run away from it... how could I like someone and detest her at the same time... I seriously have no idea whats wrong with me... I shouldn't have followed my heart... I'm so sorry.... I'm really really sorry...."
the story ends like this;
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(Monday, March 28, 2005-)
+8:49:00 PM]*
# Cricket-
7 more days b4 I start my life-threatening attachment to an ulu factory in Woodlands. If any of you out there have anything to tell me better do it now, coz I can picture myself dying inside there. Yes it is a dangerous environment. No I am not kidding.
DANGEROUS.
Well anyway today I made a trip back to JTSS fer a while to play soccer... played wif Wei Kang and the rest and as I was happily running along the soles of shoe tore. Wow. Luckily Nabil found a packet of UHU glue inside the SC room. So patched it back up, and while waiting for it to set, I played CRICKET! Yes. Cricket. It was kinda fun though... coz not many of us there know how to play so we developed our own in-school rules. Yeah baby. Those were the times. Played with Syafiq, Ivan, Bala and the rest of them... Boy do I remember those days....
Waiting for Sharon in Mac, all because I wanted to ask her number (and I took 2 weeks to do it by the way....)
Studying for my O's in Mac, with them around it was like Jin Tai conquer the whole place...
All of us hong"ing" for gals... especially the Kent Ridge ones... (Xiu Ling you should remember this: "I wrote your name on the sand, but the waves washed it away...")
Sei asking for Chicky, KFC's mascot, for an AUTOGRAPH. Yes you read correctly. Autograph.
We totally dominated the whole street soccer court behind Ginza, we even bought matching wrist bands and called ourselves "Team Graphic Nike".
Yeah we were spastic den... but we were spastic and fun-loving people! Too bad the whole gang is like not so together anymore....
And today Miss Lim Xinyi Joanna was supposed to meet me but in the end she pang seh me. HMPH! But I still so good bought the Giordano wristband for her... and I forgot to buy one for Kai Yan... tommorrow I'll get it for her...
And as a rare mention.... I would like to say a big Happy Birthday to Ferlynn! All the best in your future endeavours!
"I don't wanna feel, the way I do...
I juz wanna be, right here with you...
I don't wanna see, see us apart...
I juz wanna say it straight from my heart,
I miss you..." - Miss You, Westlife.
the story ends like this;
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(Friday, March 25, 2005-)
+1:32:00 AM]*
# Guilty.-
"Heinze now with the ball... he looks up and sees Scholes asking for it. He slides one over to Scholes, who traps it with his left and heels it to Keane... Keano looks up and sees Ronaldo making a run... through ball forward finds Ronaldo in acres of space... no other choice seeing Maldini and Gattuso in front of him he looks up and sees.... Fadzli Shah making a mad run behind him... a little party trick and he pushes the ball to Fadzli who continues down the wing... Gattuso tackles back but Fadzli rides it smoothly... Maldini arrives and Fadzli does a cheeky nutmeg pass him... next is Jaap Stam, who was fooled by Fadzli left-right flip flop... he pushes the ball with his left foot, look up and hits a curler to the top-right hand corner of Dida's post! Absolute magic! Great goal by new Manchester United signing Fadzli Shah....."
As you all can tell.... that happened in a dream I had a few minutes ago.... dun laugh!
While waiting for Miss Koo to message me I fell into a light sleep.... but enough to have a dream... hai... doubt it I can sleep comfortably tonight... feel too damn guilty.
I know you told me it isn't my fault, but I can't help it you know? I was there... it juz wun go away for now....
And today something really spastic happened. Met Pearl and Li Ping outside the ET arcade so I went out to talk with them... after around 20 mins a group of gals appeared around the corner... LP and Pearl thought it was Peiyu coz one of them had ALMOST the same hairstyle as her... but knowing (and seeing) Peiyu for like 3 years I juz needed a half-second glance to confirm it wasn't... but they insisted.
Li Ping: "It Peiyu lor! Its confirm lor!"
Me: " No la! I know Peiyu how long already I sure know whether its her or not lor,"
And Peiyu chose that veri moment to appear around the same corner. A blind spot.
Wad else could I say?
I juz laughed my whole head off, and so did Pearl and LP... so coincidental lor! and Peiyu had that cute blur-look on her face and asking me why I laughed... I dun think she got it. But never mind. She has a habit of doing that.
Jo I am so sorry!!!
"He who guards her sleep, is he who shall forever keep her in his heart," - Chronicles of Darkscythe, ver.2005
the story ends like this;
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(Tuesday, March 22, 2005-)
+9:15:00 PM]*
# Joey Swee!-
Today had my 2nd EG2 tutorial... and for the first time this sem I was actually confident about maths! How about that? I think you all should bet or buy 4-D or something... things like this dun happen often... anyway after that meet Jiao den go play pool... he was like so confident he would beat me... but I trounced him 9-1... good thing my form came back juz in time!
Imagine if I had beaten him 9-0... a pity wasn't it? I gave him too much slack on the 7th rack... careless careless...
After that met Jo, KY and Pearl at Ginza... me and Jiao wanted to study la... I achieved a fair amount of work... den our long-lost-"hong"ing-member Nabil joined us... today I hid Jiao's phone, den he got pissed... den he told me he was faking it. Typical Jiao stuff. Some things never change...
and I juz got a new haircut! Veri short... but I plan to style it another way once it's longer... and I bought the April issue of FHM juz now... Joey Swee is damn chio lor! She has this face and looks that makes me juz wanna... *GrOwL*... sorri sorri... a moment of man instinct took over... haha... probably gonna put her photos up if my scanner's still working...
But she still not as chio as Koo... ah nvm.
Sweet dreams...
Sleep tight...
May the stars light up your dreams tonight...
the story ends like this;
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(Sunday, March 20, 2005-)
+10:30:00 PM]*
# Torn.-
"Is there something about me that makes the whole world lie to me? I never killed anyone. I never maimed anybody. Yet seems to me everybody thinks I am the best person to lie to... Sometimes I just wish my heart would just pop out and run away because its always in constant pain. Probably I have the looks of a scarecrow since no one ever takes me seriously anyway... I tried to look for sincerity in people, and people whom I really loved and cherish would do such a thing to me... don't they know I have feelings too? Don't they think I deserve to know the truth? If they dun I would gladly hang myself from the top of the fan and literally disappear. Perhaps I'm not good enough to merit their trust... they have no idea how painful it is not to even be able to get that kind of trust... Lying not to hurt my feelings? When you lied you already hurt my feelings, only telling the truth would make me feel better... but seems to me I'm not even worth 5 cents of your trust... I guess all my time spent with you was all for nought... Lying to me is much more worse than rejecting me..."
"Fadzli, until the day you die, a part of your heart will still be yearning for her... it's slowly killing you do you know that?"
"Let it kill me then... if she's already in my heart I dun have anything to lose anyway..."
And it has always been about your happiness. The only thing that's worst besides death would be watching and listening to you cry... if you are really fond of him, den by all means stick with him... I never want to see or hear you cry again. Yet I want to be there if you cry over him. I want to be the one talking to you when he hurts you... I dun care anymore whether my heart aches hearing you cry over him, I juz want to see you happy again... you know yourself that the problem was lying to me.. you didn't have to you know... I guessed remember? I guess I'm not really worth that much to you...
But I will always be here.
the story ends like this;
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(Monday, March 14, 2005-)
+8:11:00 PM]*
# Gluttony.-
Remember I mentioned in my previous log about being sapped of energy? Well today apparently my body wanted to replace ALL of it back... so I went on a mass food orgy. Yes. I stuffed myself with food the whole day... here's a list of what I ate:
1. 5 plates chicken rice
2. 1 tub of ice-cream
3. Probably 1 litre of Milo
4. 7 packets of Bandung
5. 7 pieces of Bonjour bread
6. 1 litre of HL Milk
And currently I am still feeling hungry. This is what happens after you go on for a weekend playing soccer on both days for like almost 3 hours straight... SAPPING~!
And now my suspected broken toe is like getting more worse... I hope its a sprain... I should take care of myself if not Nurse Joanna will literally kill me... =X
"You can just tell me the truth... dun have to hide it from me... I know I shouldn't have said what I already said... but it is done... a part of me will always be calling out for you every single day for the rest of my life... but let it call out to you as a true honest friend... you dun have to protect my feelings..."
the story ends like this;
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(Sunday, March 13, 2005-)
+8:33:00 PM]*
# Sapped..-
The past weekend could also be called a "Keep Fit" weekend for me... spent both days playing soccer.. on Saturday it was Motley Krue versus a team in a church in Tampines a.k.a Jon Jega FC. we had a slightly altered line up this time around, with Ahmad playing centre-back. Now... usually when we dun have a player as good as him playing, we usually concede goals, but Saturday was a whole different story. With him at the back everyone could attack without feeling worried that we could concede. Me as the imported left-back, I could go up attacking without having that urgent need to run back, therefore became the camper outside the penalty box. We won 5-0, goal of the match came when Ahmad ran the whole length of the pitch to score... a deflection off the goalkeeper went high... den he turned and scored with a sublime bicycle kick... amazing stuff!
Den today went to Paya Lebar Methodist Girl's School for a mini-soccer tournament... 6-a-side, me teaming up wth a whole new bunch of players... today I was practically on fire... I dribbled and burned people, scored 4 goals... best game I had this whole year! we ended up having 2 wins and 1 draw, but the another team won due to superior goal difference... too bad... but that's the team we beat 2-0... hehe...
Great weekend! Hope to see more like this after my attachement... which I still dunno where....
the story ends like this;
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