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(Friday, March 13, 2009-)
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# The Final Chapter.-
I kinda decided to let this be my last post.. for this blog. When I look through the archives, I get the feeling this isn't really the person whom I want to be reminded of.. it will still remain open though, because I still want to keep the memories and and the pictures and all those funny moments I grew up with..
I think this song epitomizes what I feel right now.
So bad..a person like you..
Why did you take my heart away without my permission?
I'm living with so much difficulties
But you don't even know.
I know.. that its not me
That I'm not worthy enough for even a blink of your eye
But sometimes can't you share your smile with me too?
Even if its not love
Please turn back just once sometime
If I wait endlessly like this today
Again its the one word in my heart that I cant keep inside
I love you.
Yesterday, I laid my head on my desk
And I think I fell asleep grieving for you
When I opened my eyes, the tears had smudged
Your name and hopeless doodles
Please turn back just once sometime
If I wait endlessly like this today
Again its the one word in my heart that I can't keep inside
I love you.
As I look back at your image
which I got so used to it
I say those silent tear-like words,
I love you.
the story ends like this;
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(Sunday, March 08, 2009-)
+10:56:00 PM]*
# Confounded.-
Have you ever had one of those days where you just simply felt... lost?
Its like, you wake up, you gaze at the ceiling for a few minutes, you get up, you do your stuff, you go through the day's motions.. You eat and its tasteless, you try to inject zest by being cheery and it comes out flat.. you scroll through your phonebook to see who would be willing to go out with you, but you just can't find the heart to carry it out... you blink, and sometimes all you see is black and white.. The one person you really wanna talk to doesn't have any interest to talk to you.. you hover your mouse over a friend's email on MSN, but you know double-clicking and engaging in a conversation with them would probably mean they stop replying you halfway.. you try to keep your mind busy, but it'll find a way to drag up memories you don't want to remember.. You remember seeing her for the first time, all preppy and cute, chatting with her friends.. you remember the outings you have, you remember the smiles she gave you.. you remember the twinkle in her eye whenever you surprise or tell her something she finds amusing.. you remember how subtle her touch was, when she grabbed your arm and ran through the crowd together.. you remember her other smile, the ultra radiant one, the one that causes her cheeks to glow and her eyes to shimmer, like you're gazing into a beautiful kaleidoscope... and you recall the softness of her hair, her scent and her voice.. and then you realize, that it will never never ever happen.. and you can never have her.. because her future lies away from you, and even though you would defy everything just to be with her and spent the rest of your life growing old together, she might not feel the same way.. have you ever had that kinda day?
I've spent a week like that.. and I have no idea what to do about it...
the story ends like this;
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(Sunday, March 01, 2009-)
+12:02:00 AM]*
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나는 나가 당신을 위협한 경우에 진짜로 유감스럽다. 나는에 의미하지 않는다. 나는 왜 나가 일을 한지 건너오는, 나 한 무슨이 저 잘 모른다. 그러나 나가 무엇이건을 철회할 것이다 그것의 멀리 너무 늦은 지금. 그러나 당신이 무엇이건을, 저를 묵살하지 말라. 당신은 저에게, 아래로 돈다 저를, 힌트 거절할 수 있다. 그러나, 저를 묵살하지 말라.
If you think its a song.. its not.
the story ends like this;
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