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# Life's Lessons.-
Sooner or later, everyone will come across a period of time where they just stop and ask themselves, "have I done what I really wanted to do with my life?". Just like your mid-year exams. It gauges you on whether you've been performing well or not.
Have you been doing well so far?
I may be only 23 this year, but I feel like I haven't done much yet to feel satisfied. Yeah sure there's all my New Year resolutions and stuff, and for your info, I have been keeping to my resolutions.. but something more concrete. more solid. something that you can feel and experience and touch and breathe all at the same time. It could be a trip overseas, a new car, a new Macbook Air or iPhone.. its that feeling of self-satisfaction you get when you know and can tell yourself that "wow. I've finally done it!"
I have no idea when was the last time I said that to myself, and congratulate the reflection in my mirror for it.
Some people say 23 is still young. That I still got time to think and plan for my future. Do all the necessary arrangements to make sure my dreams and wishes can come true. But I kinda feel I'm behind time. I'm not whining about NS though, as its something all male Singapore citizens have to go through, so the Singapore men are pretty much in the same lost-2-years-of-my-life boat as I am. I just feel.. late.
Whoever is reading this, and you're still in the 15-20 years old age range, take 30 mins out of the day for yourself and ask your reflection in the mirror, "what will I have achieved in 5 year's time?"
I didn't do this waaay back then. And its something that haunts me till this very day. I used to be one of those yuppies that flowed where the river travels to. What I didn't realize was, the river would eventually end up in the sea, and you'll be lost.
Which is what I'm feeling right now.
Surely, plans can be made right? Some of you know that I'll be pursuing a degree in either sports medicine or psychology once I've finished with NS. But, don't you feel like its a bit too late?
I know I do.
I should have planned my path midway through secondary school. For those of you who grew up with me through secondary school, you know that I almost didn't have time for this kinda "external" activity. I should have.
Find some time to reflect everyday, sum up the achievements for the day, congratulate yourself for a job well done, and mentally stash notes in your head not to repeat mistakes that happened..
5 years down the road, you'll be telling yourself "damn. I'm so glad I kept time to myself everyday". I've never summed up my life so specifically before, so I didn't know what the equation would come up to.
Now I do. and as I think about it, its not a result that I want.
I don't want to see my friends and loved ones making the same mistakes that I did. I don't have youth on my side anymore. I'm not saying that I'm ageing and losing hair, but the next stage of my life is coming, and I'm behind time preparing for it.
Seriously people. Think about your future and review. Don't wait till its too late.
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