(Monday, December 26, 2005-)
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# Short story.-
I saw a close friend of mine just now. He was feeling quite down, but he told me he's been happier as compared to the last few days. This is what he told me...
He made a veri big decision. To him it was neither bad nor good, but he wanted to be happy. But his happiness involved his own girlfriend and another person. For him, hurting the feelings of others is the greatest crime ever, but in this case, someone has to be burned. He tried to do it the gentlest way possible. He succeeded to some extent, but there was no denying that the girl was hurt. But to his dismay, the other girl involved suddenly had a change of heart, and went with another guy.
My friend was devastated.
For 2 days and nights he was feeling like clothes in a washing machine, being spun and thrown around. His mind was a mess. His heart was shattered. His soul ripped apart. He gave up his beliefs and morals and pride to be with that girl, but in the end she just walked out the door without even giving him a chance. The things that they had done together, he could remember clearly, and every thought punctured his heart like needles. He made up his mind. He was going to avoid and ignore her forever, for making him into the mess he is today..
On Christmas afternoon, my friend went to blow off some steam at Jurong Point with a few friends. Turns out, that other girl was supposed to be there too. He went on full alert, looking out for her so that he could turn and run if he did see her. It worked well, and they went to the arcade and played a few games. After finishing a certain game, my friend walked out of the arcade and lo and behold, he saw the other girl there! She was talking to her friends, so she didn't see him. Instead of running away like my friend predicted, he just stood there looking at her for a while, admiring her. Thinking of how sweet she looked today, wearing white. How her hair flows over her shoulder, how it bounces around whenever she turns her head, how her eyes twinkle when she laughs, how amazing her smile is... and then he walked out and pretended to never see her at all. It was hard. It was like plunging into a mass of sharp glass shards. But he'd rather do that than completely become a moron once he's face to face with her. He waited a while, and then she left.
The moments after that was filled with thoughts about her in my friend's head. Finally, he decided to message her, telling her how sweet she looked today. That SMS started a messaging session that is lasting all the way till now.. Except that it didn't hurt so badly anymore. He'd just sincerely wish every night that the guy would take care of her and love her the way he would, because she deserves someone right this time. That was my friend's Christmas wish you know..
Oh yeah by the way, I met my friend when I looked into the mirror.
Merry Christmas!
The day the stars don't shine, that's the day you'll be replaced in my heart.
He made a veri big decision. To him it was neither bad nor good, but he wanted to be happy. But his happiness involved his own girlfriend and another person. For him, hurting the feelings of others is the greatest crime ever, but in this case, someone has to be burned. He tried to do it the gentlest way possible. He succeeded to some extent, but there was no denying that the girl was hurt. But to his dismay, the other girl involved suddenly had a change of heart, and went with another guy.
My friend was devastated.
For 2 days and nights he was feeling like clothes in a washing machine, being spun and thrown around. His mind was a mess. His heart was shattered. His soul ripped apart. He gave up his beliefs and morals and pride to be with that girl, but in the end she just walked out the door without even giving him a chance. The things that they had done together, he could remember clearly, and every thought punctured his heart like needles. He made up his mind. He was going to avoid and ignore her forever, for making him into the mess he is today..
On Christmas afternoon, my friend went to blow off some steam at Jurong Point with a few friends. Turns out, that other girl was supposed to be there too. He went on full alert, looking out for her so that he could turn and run if he did see her. It worked well, and they went to the arcade and played a few games. After finishing a certain game, my friend walked out of the arcade and lo and behold, he saw the other girl there! She was talking to her friends, so she didn't see him. Instead of running away like my friend predicted, he just stood there looking at her for a while, admiring her. Thinking of how sweet she looked today, wearing white. How her hair flows over her shoulder, how it bounces around whenever she turns her head, how her eyes twinkle when she laughs, how amazing her smile is... and then he walked out and pretended to never see her at all. It was hard. It was like plunging into a mass of sharp glass shards. But he'd rather do that than completely become a moron once he's face to face with her. He waited a while, and then she left.
The moments after that was filled with thoughts about her in my friend's head. Finally, he decided to message her, telling her how sweet she looked today. That SMS started a messaging session that is lasting all the way till now.. Except that it didn't hurt so badly anymore. He'd just sincerely wish every night that the guy would take care of her and love her the way he would, because she deserves someone right this time. That was my friend's Christmas wish you know..
Oh yeah by the way, I met my friend when I looked into the mirror.
Merry Christmas!
The day the stars don't shine, that's the day you'll be replaced in my heart.
the story ends like this;
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(Sunday, December 25, 2005-)
+3:53:00 AM]*
+3:53:00 AM]*
# Haix-
His head touches the pillow
His eyes wide open
Do you care there's someone thinking of you out there?
He sees you
Your eyes
Your smile
Your laughter
Your shine
But I bet you never saw his own.
His eyes won't close
His body won't rest
His hands won't still
His mind is full
Carved into his head a picture of you
But do you care?
He did things he shouldn't have
He broke things that shouldn't have
He has nothing left to go on by
But he don't think you know.
You gave him hope
You gave him laughter
You gave him new meaning
And you took it all away.
Sitting by his table
He stares out the window
Still fond of you
He thinks about you
He prays that you'll be happy
With whatever you have
Even though you destroyed
The person that was there.
the story ends like this;
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(Friday, December 23, 2005-)
+11:28:00 AM]*
+11:28:00 AM]*
# All mine.-
I'm sorry.
I owe everyone involved this big apology. Its all entirely my own fault. Its my thinking. I think too much. I'm not the same person I used to be. I don't know why. I don't know how. All I know is, I've hurt people I cared about in the process. That's the last thing I wanted to do. Things like this happen naturally, but I took it wrongly. I made bad decisions. I've said the wrong things at the wrong time. In short, its all MY fault.
Don't bother about me.
I owe everyone involved this big apology. Its all entirely my own fault. Its my thinking. I think too much. I'm not the same person I used to be. I don't know why. I don't know how. All I know is, I've hurt people I cared about in the process. That's the last thing I wanted to do. Things like this happen naturally, but I took it wrongly. I made bad decisions. I've said the wrong things at the wrong time. In short, its all MY fault.
Don't bother about me.
the story ends like this;
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(Wednesday, December 21, 2005-)
+12:24:00 PM]*
+12:24:00 PM]*
# Wish.-
A big sorry to Victor "Harry Potter" Toh for not asking him out for the previous Sentosa trip. I assume you working. MANGO leh. Next time I open one boutique called "THEO".
Tiffany comes back today! Picking her up later den heading down to ET. I don't have much to say this week. God knows why. All I know is, I've felt extremely upset, and extremely happy at the same time.
This whole entire fracas is confusing me beyond words. If it gets too much. I'll leave. I don't want to say much anymore. I don't know what's going on in my head. If I could tear out my heart I would. But I can't. You know me. If it bothers me, I'll just go away. At least maybe that way, I won't be in such an imbalance state of mind..
Tiffany comes back today! Picking her up later den heading down to ET. I don't have much to say this week. God knows why. All I know is, I've felt extremely upset, and extremely happy at the same time.
This whole entire fracas is confusing me beyond words. If it gets too much. I'll leave. I don't want to say much anymore. I don't know what's going on in my head. If I could tear out my heart I would. But I can't. You know me. If it bothers me, I'll just go away. At least maybe that way, I won't be in such an imbalance state of mind..
the story ends like this;
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(Sunday, December 18, 2005-)
+2:14:00 PM]*
+2:14:00 PM]*
# Sentosa.-
Tiffany's going to be back on Tuesday!!! YAY!
Okay well anyway, yesterday we made another trip to Sentosa. Who went??
Me, Samantha, Ze Suan, Wei Zong, Ryan, Rebecca, Calvin, Evan, Pearl, Wen Cong, Wen Yao, Ferlyn, Michael and his 2 friends.
It was such a fun day! And we saw something about Wen Cong that would be etched in my memory forever.
I don't have really much time to post a proper event recountal, so here's the links to the pictures:
http://s4.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=2XJ78MVNO1B8320PG4YJ19XUEA
It has a 7 day life so quickly get it!
I sense a disturbance in the force. I believe Ryan will be attached again. Soon.
And I received a SMS from Theo this morning. It read:
"Me theo..u got gernan no?"
Jernan, if you're reading this, don't kill me. Kill Theo.
Okay well anyway, yesterday we made another trip to Sentosa. Who went??
Me, Samantha, Ze Suan, Wei Zong, Ryan, Rebecca, Calvin, Evan, Pearl, Wen Cong, Wen Yao, Ferlyn, Michael and his 2 friends.
It was such a fun day! And we saw something about Wen Cong that would be etched in my memory forever.
I don't have really much time to post a proper event recountal, so here's the links to the pictures:
http://s4.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=2XJ78MVNO1B8320PG4YJ19XUEA
It has a 7 day life so quickly get it!
I sense a disturbance in the force. I believe Ryan will be attached again. Soon.
And I received a SMS from Theo this morning. It read:
"Me theo..u got gernan no?"
Jernan, if you're reading this, don't kill me. Kill Theo.
the story ends like this;
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(Monday, December 05, 2005-)
+11:43:00 AM]*
+11:43:00 AM]*
# The STORY.-
Victor's right. The last time I updated this was when the dinosaurs still roamed the Earth. And there was this particularly disgusting-looking T-Rex called Barney. How scary.
Anyway.
Here I am in school, lunch time, with me nothing to do. Supposed to meet Tiff, Sam, Sebas later for town session. Yeah boy. Boring. At least I'm with people I can crap loads with.
I know I didn't update last week's trip to Sentosa, because I barely had to mood for it. Kinda like bored la. Here then, is the overdue update!
Anyway, the story starts like this:
4 REALLY REALLY handsome guys, Fadzli, Wei Zhong, Ryan & Sebastian were walking by the beach thinking of how to make the world a safer place, when they saw THIS:
They saw the infamous Palawan Beach Shuai Ge, a.k.a PB Monster making its nest. In this picture he's making a threatening gesture with his mouth. According to the report, the PBSG said, "Leave me alone. I'm wearing a G-string and I feel there's something stuck up my buttcrack."
Anyway, Wei Zhong, sensing danger quickly transforms.
He says the magic words: "By the Powers granted by the Chee Hong gods, GRANT ME THE POWER!.
And so he changed from this:
to this:
The legendary WEI "MONKEYMAN" ZHONG!
So using his limited fighting skills (Repeating lines from Russell Peters videos), he managed to scare the PBSG away..
But unfrotunately, the experience left Ryan slightly "lost-minded"...
Anyway, after saving the world, the 4 REALLY REALLY handsome guys met up with a Miss Singapore 2005.
After talking for a while, she was dying to take a picture with the heros, so, heroically, Wei Zhong volunteered to take a picture of them together.
Notice how Miss Singapore doesn't know any other poses.
Then they separated and they came upon the champions of beach volleyball playing nearby. Seeing the 4 REALLY REALLY handsome guys, the team got jealous, and thought they could beat the crap out of our heroes in volleyball. The 4 REALLY REALLY handsome guys agreed, and Ryan got to serve first:
Ryan, in his service position, and Sebastian, before his flashing days.
The match was quite one sided, with our 4 REALLY REALLY handsome guys taking the first set by the scruff of the neck, beating world champions Brazil 15-0. In the 2nd set, Ryan decided to show off his killer move, THE POSER SPIKE!
The POSER SPIKE in it's full glory. This spike is unique as you don't have to jump to hit the ball. Just hit the ball with that kinda pose, and when the ball hits the opponent's side, this will happen:
Yeah. That's all. The end.
This whole entire week has been ET non-stop. I dunno for wad. But now I've finally finalized 2 members of my KOF team: Shermie & Kim. 3rd member? Undecided. Either Iori or Kyo. Both also not say very good I use.
Hmm... Saw Lady Moon yesterday. Forgot to tell you guys. She's now with brown hair. and even paler face. And I saw Pearl's picture in Jo's Friendster. Lets just say, if you saw her 6 months ago and saw her in that picture, your mouth would be gaping as wide as Bukit Timah Hill too.
And a certain girl I call SMALL EYES never contact me le! I complain here. Haha. No calls, no messages, no testimonials... DAO! =)
Anyway.
Here I am in school, lunch time, with me nothing to do. Supposed to meet Tiff, Sam, Sebas later for town session. Yeah boy. Boring. At least I'm with people I can crap loads with.
I know I didn't update last week's trip to Sentosa, because I barely had to mood for it. Kinda like bored la. Here then, is the overdue update!
Anyway, the story starts like this:
4 REALLY REALLY handsome guys, Fadzli, Wei Zhong, Ryan & Sebastian were walking by the beach thinking of how to make the world a safer place, when they saw THIS:
They saw the infamous Palawan Beach Shuai Ge, a.k.a PB Monster making its nest. In this picture he's making a threatening gesture with his mouth. According to the report, the PBSG said, "Leave me alone. I'm wearing a G-string and I feel there's something stuck up my buttcrack."
Anyway, Wei Zhong, sensing danger quickly transforms.
He says the magic words: "By the Powers granted by the Chee Hong gods, GRANT ME THE POWER!.
And so he changed from this:
to this:
The legendary WEI "MONKEYMAN" ZHONG!
So using his limited fighting skills (Repeating lines from Russell Peters videos), he managed to scare the PBSG away..
But unfrotunately, the experience left Ryan slightly "lost-minded"...
Anyway, after saving the world, the 4 REALLY REALLY handsome guys met up with a Miss Singapore 2005.
After talking for a while, she was dying to take a picture with the heros, so, heroically, Wei Zhong volunteered to take a picture of them together.
Notice how Miss Singapore doesn't know any other poses.
Then they separated and they came upon the champions of beach volleyball playing nearby. Seeing the 4 REALLY REALLY handsome guys, the team got jealous, and thought they could beat the crap out of our heroes in volleyball. The 4 REALLY REALLY handsome guys agreed, and Ryan got to serve first:
Ryan, in his service position, and Sebastian, before his flashing days.
The match was quite one sided, with our 4 REALLY REALLY handsome guys taking the first set by the scruff of the neck, beating world champions Brazil 15-0. In the 2nd set, Ryan decided to show off his killer move, THE POSER SPIKE!
The POSER SPIKE in it's full glory. This spike is unique as you don't have to jump to hit the ball. Just hit the ball with that kinda pose, and when the ball hits the opponent's side, this will happen:
Yeah. That's all. The end.
This whole entire week has been ET non-stop. I dunno for wad. But now I've finally finalized 2 members of my KOF team: Shermie & Kim. 3rd member? Undecided. Either Iori or Kyo. Both also not say very good I use.
Hmm... Saw Lady Moon yesterday. Forgot to tell you guys. She's now with brown hair. and even paler face. And I saw Pearl's picture in Jo's Friendster. Lets just say, if you saw her 6 months ago and saw her in that picture, your mouth would be gaping as wide as Bukit Timah Hill too.
And a certain girl I call SMALL EYES never contact me le! I complain here. Haha. No calls, no messages, no testimonials... DAO! =)
the story ends like this;
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