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(Wednesday, July 27, 2005-)
+8:52:00 PM]*
# Health.-
Stayed at home the whole day today... had a slight fever in the morning, so better not risk anything in the nowadays cold weather... suddenly today it was quite sunny. The weather must be looking up. The same can't be said for my mood.
Ever had a friend who is too hardcore? As in, too dedicated to the things he/she does. Lemme give you an example.
She's someone you'd thought that'd never existed. Someone who actually loved studying. Studies so much till the wee hours of the morning, and this happens during non-exam period. And she's only in secondary school. Imagine how smart she is. To me, maybe she well-educated in the form of knowledge and information. But in terms of common sense, none.
She is so dedicated to her work, she still does it when she's sick. You'd think this shows her utmost dedication. Sure hell yeah, people should study hard when they're young. But even when they're not in the pink of health? I find it very dumb. You know yourself you're sick and you still push yourself to the end until 2 or 3 in the morning. If you had a major exam coming well maybe its understandable. She tells me she can't survive one day without studying. Well maybe I should write a book for YOU to study:
"Common sense for the Common person."
Read it. I mean seriously! You're stressing yourself out until you fall sick much more easily then other people! I know I have no right to say this. But take a load off yourself. Spending one day for yourself doesn't mean your future will be as bleak as mine. You told me your mum nags at you if you don't study. Even when you're sick? That's not a mother that's a slavedriver! Tell her to go somewhere and fly a kite while you rest! She can't expect you to be studying 24/7. If you're a study robot then go strut your stuff. But no. Your human. HUMAN. You have a limit. I reached mine. That's why I'm blowing off a bit of steam. Every person has his or her own right to an opinion. But anyone who has heard about you will say the same thing...
TAKE A BREAK. STOP STUDYING FOR ONE DAY. RECUPERATE FOR GOD'S SAKE!
Like I said to you yesterday: "What's the point of studying so hard if you're dead?"
If you don't take care of yourself now, you might end up that way.
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(Tuesday, July 26, 2005-)
+8:48:00 PM]*
# Ancient discovery.-
While going through all my old stuff yesterday, I chanced upon a folder of mine that had a Gundam cover on it. Lo and behold! It was my legendary file with all the lyrics and poems I wrote over the course of 1999 - 2001! Full of those really old songs... I remember spending time in Sec 2 singing with my friends whenever we were bored... Even in the canteen! Hell yeah... those were the good old days....
And then there were those poems I found that were written whenever I was feeling out of love...
Haha! Thinking about it, I didn't know I was such a deep person back then. Ask me to write a nice poem now and I'll probably struggle! Anyway, here it is. Fadzli's own original copyrighted poem, first written in December 1999.
Just when I believed I could never love anymore,
that this cruel world had pushed me through another door,
I sit and desperately plea,
for the one love that would set me free...
When I saw your smile and heavenly eyes,
my mind could not erase the beauty of your face,
I just stood there fallen apart,
looking at the angel who had captured my heart...
I would cherish you,
with all the love my heart could give,
coz I know now,
its without you I can't live...
I never wanted anymore in this world,
than what I've found in you,
coz this broken heart could see,
how perfect we can be...
Yeah... I used to be THAT deep.
okay back to my usual entries. Nothing much has changed ever since my last entry. except now maybe my pool is getting back to its on-off form AGAIN. and we're planning something big for the weekend. I think. Its either that or Sentosa. Anyone wanna come?
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(Thursday, July 21, 2005-)
+10:50:00 AM]*
# ?-
Wow its like so long since I've updated. many many many things happened in between. things like...
first a big CONGRATULATIONS to SWZ and his new found love Ferlyn. Hell yeah. she's just missing another "n". Anyway they're the most loving couple on this side of Singapore. Its like watching some mushy love movie live when you're with them. Any more closer it'd be R21. I remember the first time he introed her to me...
"Fadzli, this is Ferlyn."
On my face I went, "oooh.... hello!"
In my heart I was ##%@%##^$$&%%^$%&^^#$ that sounds exactly like ^&$$*%#$&%&$ m y ex $&##*%&#%&$&%&#(&&%&$:
Ok maybe not so big and full of crap but you get the idea.
I think it's been scientifically proven that Theo must have a dumb moment once a week. Since 2 weeks have gone by... lemme give you 2.
We were at Cine the first week when Wei Zhong used a roll of wrapping paper -__-" to scare Theo. and in front of about 50 people, he fell down. Not like acting or juz lightly falling down, but heavily. On his huge gigantic butt. I could swear to you people were laughing, but he just stood up like nothing happened. me on the other nad, was behind the pool table laughing.
Theo moment number 2. We were at ET and decided to eat at the hawker centre. But Theo didn't want to go to the usual place beside the bakery. When we asled him why he kept quiet. After about 15 times... he let on. He said...
"Just now I bought something-something-something from this uncle's shop... he's supposed to give me $2 change, but instead he give me $10. That's why I don't want to go there, later I scared he remembers me."
I was this close to beating the crap out of the guy. I mean like.... THAT IS FUCKING DUMB LOR! and he gave us that face again. Feel like putting it on the MRT track and watch his face run over... and den asking the driver to gostan slowly just to see instant replay in slow motion. 2 things came to mind when he told me that:
1. If you know you will feel guilty, why not just return the damn money?
2. That uncle probably didn't get past K2.
He is naive. He is innocent. and. he is also dumb. 'nuff said.
2 years ago, I had a female friend who stays in the East who had a bf who can be quite unreasonable sometimes. eh wait make that 2. Even though the guy would treat her like crap, she'll be crying but still say "I wanna be with him, because I love him a lot." Me and Norman tried very hard to convince her that the only way for her to be happy is to let the go of the jerk. But no she wouldn't. If memory serves me right, she tolerated for about 6 months b4 letting go. So imagine me and Norman giving her a lecture almost every other day. She'll call us up and complain about how dumb and unreasonable the bfs can be. After she let him and the other guy go, I can tell she's A HELL LOT MORE happier. and I thought this would be the last time I'd see a girl giving her whole heart to someone who doesn't deserve it.
I was god damn fucking wrong.
Sometimes, I wish you'd just let him go. You can remain the person you are now. You don't need him to be around to remain like this. I'm tired of hearing you two fighting over small unreasonable stuff. I'm tired of hearing you cry over the phone. I'm tired of hearing all your broken promises. I'm tired of having my heart in constant pain hearing about all those unreasonable things he does to you. I'm tired of waiting for you.
You know what you mean to me. You know what it takes for me to forget you. I'm sorry if I hurt you, but since you can tolerate him I'm sure I'm nothing more but a small fry to you. I'm sorry.
For you.
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(Monday, July 11, 2005-)
+10:13:00 AM]*
# Jomatoes / 16-
Before I start off rattling my mouth in my latest entry, I would like to wish a veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri veri happy 16th birthday to Joanna! Otherwise known as Jomatoes, EO-Mai, Priestess Of The Moon & Mooncake. That's all right? Now that she's 16, it means several things...
* I can ask her out for pool. LEGALLY!
* She can go Sparks, like she will.
* I've known her for 5 years.
* She's had short hair for 4 of those years.
* She's left with 4 more years. Haha. Only she'd knew what I'm talking about.
Okay back to my usual entries...
Last week I started playing WC3 again. Yeah. I'm back among the Undead, Orcs and Humans again. and guess what. I got thrashed. By computer opponent set on level NORMAL. How am I going to even play dota with that record. Basket. Later I go buy pirated CD play. and I used to be quite good at using Human. Damn.
Theo had another one of his moments over the weekend. We were at Burger King when he ordered BBQ Turkey Bacon Double. Den when he opened up the burger he asked me:
"Fadzli is this beef?"
I gave him that incredulous look and told him "Yeah it is.. why?"
den he started emoing.
Den he went on telling me that the previous 2 times he bought the burger the counter person told him that was FISH. Yeah. FISH. Ikan. Sea creature with gills. he also told me he cannot eat beef. den I ask him why. den he told me this:
"Its not that I cannot eat, but I really cannot eat!"
How in God's name do you interpret that? Me, Norman, Yao and Eric were quite pissed off with his really really.... DF behaviour. How can fish be like so brown in colour, and the meat so.... different then beef! I can accept that he's naive, but this is borderline dumbness. Den he also told me a true Christian doesn't eat beef. So now I ask all of you Christian readers of my blog:
Do true Christians eat beef? Or is it another figment of Theophilus's vast and absurd imagination?
Okay... enough about Theo. I've started my hols this week, and I've gotta study. Gotta call up Meng Kiat later.
And Saturday night at Zenzie was damn nice! Rachel is hot. HOT. when she dances. anyway. That night ended up a bit cocked up. but otherwise it was quite okay for me. Broke my four year hiatus of clubbing. and just in case a certain YELLOW CHICK is wondering... I didn't smoke. CQ looks so different now... Lost.
"I'm still here."
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(Wednesday, July 06, 2005-)
+8:29:00 PM]*
# Always Head Towards North.-
After watching Initial D, I totally fell for this song. Damn nice lor! Here's the lyrics and translation. A big thank you to nuchin.com for providing this!
Always Head Towards North
hou shi jing li de shi jie yue lai yue yuan de dao bie
The world from the rear view mirror becomes further and further away as if saying goodbye,
ni zhuan shen xiang bei che lian hai shi hen mei
You turn around but your side profile is still very beautiful,
wo yong yan guang qu zui jing ting jian ni de lei
I use my eyes to pursue you, yet I hear your tears,
zai che chuang wai mian pai hui shi wo cuo shi de ji hui
Outside the car window is my missed opportunity,
ni zhan de fang wei gen wo zhong jian ge zhe lei
Your position and mine is separated by tears,
jie jing yi zhi zai hou tui ni de beng kui zai chuang wai ling sui
The street views are continuously receding, you start to fragment outside the window
*Chorus*
wo yi lu xiang bei li kai you ni de ji jie
I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you,
ni shuo ni hao lei yi wu fa zai ai shang shui
You said you were already tired and cannot fall in love with anybody again,
feng zai shan lu chui guo wang de hua mian quan dou shi wo bu dui
The wind is blowing on the mountain road, all of our previous memories were my wrongdoings,
xi su can kui wo shang ni ji hui
Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances..
wo yi lu xiang bei li kai you ni de ji jie
I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you,
fang xiang pan zhou wei hui zhuan zhe wo de hou hui
Around the steering wheel rotates my feelings of regret,
wo jia sui chao yue que shuai bu diao jing jing gen shui de shang bei
I accelerate to escape the lingering sadness,
xi shu can kui wo shang ni ji hui
Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances,
ting zhi lang bei jiu rang cuo chun cui
Stop the anguish by letting my wrongdoings..
Nice song right? Veri meaningful.
Anyway, back to my usual entry... I went for my first bridge class today. actually its quite a fun game to play! I was thrashed 985-0, but hey I'm a newbie u know! Once I get the hang of it they'd better watch out! I spent the rest of the say at home... wow. Fadzli at home. and tommorrow I have my Computer Programming test. Can pass one dun worry.
This weekend is giving me a big headache. Norman needs me to plan something for him, Ting & P.C, but I want to go Sentosa. how?
And Batman Begins is a good movie. Hell yeah! Better than War Of The Worlds. Definitely.
"Seeing your name once again brings me joy I once knew... and lost."
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(Sunday, July 03, 2005-)
+1:32:00 AM]*
# Green.-
Went to catch War of the Worlds yesterday. The starting is soOo promising. but the ending is so farked up. It was STUPID ending. For the benefit for those who haven caught it yet, I won't elaborate. Catch it if you're fan of Tom Cruise or you like to hear 12 year old girls screaming their lungs out.
After that we went to Para. As usual. at this point of time, Norman found out that he was wearing his polo tee inside out. from home to Cine. wow. today there was an unusually large number of people watching. and den I saw that girl from Yew Tee with her friend. Found out from Takumi (Theo) that he knew those 2 girls. okay fine. So I juz kept my mouth shut and went down to the food court to eat. after dinner we went up for a while more den we went home.
This is where the most dumbest thing in our group's history happened.
In the train on the way back we were talking about Takumi and Wen Yao. they were wearing the exact same colour code. T-shirt was red and blue, jeans was dark blue and even the shoes were the same shades! so we had to compare one more thing to make it official. Takumi asked Yao: "What colour underwear are you wearing?"
and Wen Yao told him green.
Ironically, Theo was wearing the exact same colour underwear! So while they were making a fuss, Norman had to ask the other question:
Norman: "So Theo, what is the colour of your dick?"
And Theo CONFIDENTLY answered:
"Green"
Me, Norman and Ryan totally burst out laughing! I guess he was too blur. but underwear and dick the sound so far away lor! How could he mistaken it! goodness me. Theo Theo. You're too damn blur sometimes haha...
"My days are punctuated by thoughts of you. Every second. Every minute. Every day."
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(Saturday, July 02, 2005-)
+12:39:00 AM]*
# Update.-
Ever since the Sentosa trip I've been ignoring this. So I'll go thru it day by day for the past week:
Monday: Skipped morning lesson and went for the afternoon one. Den I went ET as usual. Nothing special happened.
Tuesday: I skipped class for no good reason today. went to ET. again nothing unusual happened.
Wednesday: This is when the week got better. In the evening went to watch Initial D. Den we all gian wanna play Initial D at Snookerium. So we went and played. I beat Eric! But I got advantage because I was using my EVO 7 card I named Peiyu. Haha. den Theo thrashed me. btw we are now calling him Takumi. den I went home.
Thursday: Played Initial D again. I thrashed this newbie guy. 100m+ advantage nia. Today we also disiao Theo playing Para. He played a song barefooted, playing the game with his feet ala Lincoln style. den me and Wen Yao took rambutans and placed it on the dance floor while he was dancing.
*SqUisH*
Yucks.
Friday: Slacked in class... den at 4 went to Cine. Pool almost on form. den we played Para. and today was a day to be recorded in history.
Back in Ginza, me and Ryan had this move where we will bend down backwards and stretch one hand up while the other hand supports the back. Its quite excruciating really. If you're not used to it you might get injured. But our dear friend Theophilus was so confident of doing it. So he tried. and surprise surprise he could actually do it! But he had to apply it in the game to make it successful... so he played. The song he chose was Go Godzilla Go.
After showing off his limited skills, den came the end part where Ryan told him it was best to do it. Ryan told him 3 key things when doing the move:
1. Do it slowly.
2. Maintain your balance.
3. Keep your legs apart, waist length.
And den Theo did the exact opposite. He went down so fast, with legs together. and den when his back hand reached the floor, his legs gave away and he fell down, and den rolled to the side.
Me and Ryan totally couldn't control ourselves anymore. we juz exploded. ok 'nuff said.
Up till now I still think about it... and LAUGGGGHHHH the whole way thru...
Oh yeah. and someone from the Disney Channel wants me and the rest of the group to dance para for a show segment. Wow.
Saturday: Going to watch War Of The Worlds. Peiyu did I promise to watch it with you? I can't recall le.
And Cecilia. you are chubbie. in a cute way of course. plus dat sexy husky voice of yours. Vixen.
Jomatoes's birthday is coming! Everyone quick, pack your bags and head overseas!
I miss you...
the story ends like this;
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